“Hedidittohimself.”Shesaid,andthenthetearsameforreal,atorrentofthem.“HedidsomedamageRon.”
Harrydoesn’trememberlisteningtoher.AllheremembersisthatonemomenthispitureofSeamusinludedtheSeamusheknewfromshool,thehappyonethatwasinlovewithDean,andnowtherewasthisotherSeamusinhishead,theonethatkissedDeangoodbyeonhiswaytoworkandthensatdowntowriteanote,wholokedhimselfinabathroom,whogotfoundbyLunathreehoursteroveredinhisownbloodandryingabouthowheouldn’tmakehimselfutdeepenough,ouldshefinishit,please.
Please,hehadapparentlysobbed,lettingherpullhimintoherarmslikehewasstillalittlekid.Pleaseletitend.
Harryfeltlikehehadbeenpunhedinthestomah,soheturnedaway,butheouldn’thidefromitforever,beauseRonwasonhisfeet,onearmedaroundhissister’sshoulders.“I’mgoinghome.”Hesaid,voiegrim,butdeterminedinthewayithadbeenbakwhentheywerepreparingtodosomethinggerous,likehewashekingthingsoffofato-dolist.“Makingherastrongupoftea.YouwanttogokeepDeanompanyinthehospitaluntilHermionegetsthere?”
No,hewantedtosay,beausehedidnotwantthat,hedidnotwanttoseeSeamuslikethis,hedidnotwanttositinunomfortablehairsandtellhisfriendmeaninglessptitudes,hedidnothavetobetheonetodealwithallofthis.
Butthat’snotwhathesays.
“Sure,”Hehearshimselfsaying,reahingforhisshirttogetdressed,inexpliablywishingDraoouldomebutrealizinginthesamemomentthathewouldn’tbewelome.ThiswasnotaboutHarry’somfort.“OfourseI’llgo.”
Drao
Harrywaste,whihmeantthatDraowaswaitingwhenheamehome,settledintotheorneroftheouhwithabookspreadarosshisp.
“I’mte.Iknow.”Harrydidn’tgiveDraotimetorespond,justyankedoffhisoatandthrewitdownonthehairwithanangerthatDraohadn’tseensinetheywereinshool.“Somethingameup.”
“Iseverything—”Hemeanttoaskifeverythingwasokay,butdoesn’t,beausethewordsaren’toutofhismouthbeforeHarryislevelinghisstareathim.
“Everything’snotokay,atually.Youwanttoknowwhy?”Draodidn’t,really.Hedidn’twanttoknowwhyHarrylookedsopale,orwhyhiseyesareredenoughtomakeDraothinkhehadbeenrying,orwhatthatstainonhisshirtsleevewas.Hedidn’twanttoknowwhyhewassoteorwhyhishandsorshakingorwhyhehadsmmedthedoorsohardwhenheamein.Hejustwantedthingstobeokay.“Seamuswentandbloodytriedtokillhimself,that’swhy,rippedhimselfapartfromwristtoelbow.”